Reindeer.

I have a interview witha lady at UCFV on Friday! I am a little nervous. *grins*

Anyway here is some of my reindeer I made yesterday!

Dear God, be good to me. The sea is so wide and my boat is so small.

"Better Days"
And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these wordsAnd sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fightJ
ust a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these wordsAnd sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

"Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to me." Matthew 25:40

The past days have been extremly stressful. I don't take an overactive life very well. On the good side, my health is a lot better. I got a BootCamp Kickboxing Dvd from my mom. So soon I'll get back into my kickboxing. *smile*
My brother is going in for neuropsychological assessment. He (brother) mentioned that his scoliosis is bothering him too, I hope all goes well. :(
Yesterday was an awkward day. Not so much awkward, but my choice of words could of really been suckered up to a minimum. I got angry at a different brother and I called him an ass-hole. Yes. I felt horrible about it. I didn't help it. I rarely do. *gah*I did go and apologize, and he was willing to explain why he was so angry. It didn't have anything to do with me, which made me feel better. It is one of those area's where I can't do anything to make it better, but I can make it worse. At least that feels like how it goes.

I can smell snow, or the smell that accompanies it. *gleeful*
I think I'll see if I can get working on some of my letters and pull out my music for a while before school. I need to study up on Fascism and some older dynasties as well. (c2575-2130 B.C.) Then off about PNS (Peripheral Nervous System, then of course CNS as well. )

To avoid criicism do nothing, say nothing, be nothing. ~`Elbert Hubbard-

I tend to not like criticism. I like to be right. For me, that doesn't happen very often. I always assume people are trying to put me down to get themselves up higher,( given time to think I know this is an angry irrational momentary thought.) or it just reminds me of what a slum of a person I can lower myself to being. A sinner. It isn't pretty being one.

I love my little brother. Today we went out and I raked lots of leaves. We made forts out of maple leaves,and I threw him into the big heaps we made. The supreme joy of him having fun, living in the moment made me think of how much I could be like this. I could enjoy what I have been given. I could take everything that comes forth and see how to make the best out of it. "You miss 100% of the shots you don't take. " Wayne Gretzky-
You learn by trying. Another one by Joseph Roux is "God often visits us, but most of the time we are not at home." Where are we? Then when it seems God is distant, I realize it was me all along.
The whole thought where my life revolves around what I do, what I want to be, what I go through, starts to feel sickening. If I follow God all will be fine. God looks at the heart of our actions. I think this sometimes means that if we do something because we believe it is right, and suppose it isn't, God will know and not put that against us. I don't know what this is called.

I need not worry, or fret. What is the worst that can be done to me since God is for me?