This is a bit of a transition as I am switching from once Having this blog called "Black Coffee" with a picture of a cappuccino. (Don't know where I was going with that!)
Recently I have switched from a generous lifestyle of tons of meat and dairy- to none at all! It is exciting and scary, a little saddening. ( Meat sure tastes good sometimes! )
The new title explains my personality. I am a bit Wild and Energetic and like to think Bright. (!!) I also one day hope to own a restaurant called "The Green Avocado" Some people hate the avocado and I can relate. I used to think it was one of the most disgusting things to eat ever! I myself have grown a great love for it and have often tricked people into eating it thinking it is delicious once I have mixed it into something else. hehe. There are so many options with this type of fruit/vegetable(??)
So this is my First day of a new blog but my 13th day as a Vegan So I think I will start a Bridget Jones diary type journal. A little more entertaining!
Day 13- July 1st
121pds 0Alc. 3green teas (yay!)
Happy Canada Day!
Could not stop thinking about food, so stuffed myself full of nuts and salad til I thought I was going to hurl. Nice depiction I am sure. I was bored and just wanted to keep stuffing my face. Afterwords I felt guilty and jumped on the treadmill to make myself feel better, and then went back and ate some more salad. :P
Otherwise life is going well. Reading the book "The Kind Diet" By Alicia Silverstone. I recommend it to anyone. The idea that what goes in your body affecting everything should be thought of more then it does. How healthy can dead meat ( that over 90% is mistreated! :( ) and milk from a COWS udder (that usually pusses and bleeds from over-milking)
Anyway enough of the Save the Earth Talk.
I am sleepy and need some rest!
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Friday, December 25, 2009
Saturday, June 06, 2009
"It is better to be thought a fool then to open ones mouth and remove all doubt."
Coffee Time- Or not- I dunno. Just typing randomly. Right now I am getting cooked for and it is really nice to just sit here and be lazy. yay. yay. yay!
Monday, May 18, 2009
Bad Coffee
Ages. Ages since posting once again! I feel like such a little crybaby today. I'd like to pin it on the fact that I'm PMSing, life is going rough etc etc. That's not the truth of it. I just let myself go into a slump and crying seems almost an enjoyable stress reliever.
I was being a crybaby because I don't really have any close by friends to be with and feel like a loser and no one leaves me messages anymore and la de da.. Having a little pitty party for myself. I hate saying I was but that was how it was. I feel like such a bum. I have a ton of people willing to talk to me even now and before but I didnt have time for them (including my family) because I want to do what I want to do! It makes me reflect that in even saying this am I enjoying the feeling of feeling like I am such a boring loner (loser) so that I can be miserable? IS that warped or does that make sense?
Perhaps. I really don't know, or care. I needed somewhere to ramble and it felt like a good idea at the time. Still doesn't make sense or ever will. I just want to swear- like maybe that will get all the ugliness inside of me out!
But I dont really want to be sweet, I want to be a caullous cold hearted bitch and slap some fucking assholes faces so they feel a smart. I want to scream so loud that it breaks this stupid headache away. I want to be SOOOO Negative so that it all swarms up and explodes and then there is nothing left but pure good happy things.
I know it is all up to me to be happy- I dont need others to make myself happy I can change my attitude how do I make myself want to be happy? HAppy is such a dumb word though. I don't always have to be happy- I think that would be robotic, but what good does being how I am do. Yeah nothing- but who cares, I don't, but then I do, but I dont know it all feels like a huge blob of nothingness. GAHHHHHH.
I'm gonna go see if I can go play some rockband. I feel slightly lighthearted more now less angry. GOD HELP ME PLEASE I AM SO ANGRY FOR NO REASON
I was being a crybaby because I don't really have any close by friends to be with and feel like a loser and no one leaves me messages anymore and la de da.. Having a little pitty party for myself. I hate saying I was but that was how it was. I feel like such a bum. I have a ton of people willing to talk to me even now and before but I didnt have time for them (including my family) because I want to do what I want to do! It makes me reflect that in even saying this am I enjoying the feeling of feeling like I am such a boring loner (loser) so that I can be miserable? IS that warped or does that make sense?
Perhaps. I really don't know, or care. I needed somewhere to ramble and it felt like a good idea at the time. Still doesn't make sense or ever will. I just want to swear- like maybe that will get all the ugliness inside of me out!
But I dont really want to be sweet, I want to be a caullous cold hearted bitch and slap some fucking assholes faces so they feel a smart. I want to scream so loud that it breaks this stupid headache away. I want to be SOOOO Negative so that it all swarms up and explodes and then there is nothing left but pure good happy things.
I know it is all up to me to be happy- I dont need others to make myself happy I can change my attitude how do I make myself want to be happy? HAppy is such a dumb word though. I don't always have to be happy- I think that would be robotic, but what good does being how I am do. Yeah nothing- but who cares, I don't, but then I do, but I dont know it all feels like a huge blob of nothingness. GAHHHHHH.
I'm gonna go see if I can go play some rockband. I feel slightly lighthearted more now less angry. GOD HELP ME PLEASE I AM SO ANGRY FOR NO REASON
Saturday, October 25, 2008
No Bravery
It has been a good long time since i have felt like writing in here. Often times I am so moody or depressed or bored of computers that I really don't want to write in here. Last time I read in this journal I was a little bit disappointed with how I am turning out as a grown up. Seems I had a lot more morals back then. Why am I letting them go?
This month was pretty good, I don't feel nearly as bad as I have past years. I remember that last year was extremely rough and that I slept a lot- I also remember the summer was really good! I really grew up in a way that summer. First time not having as much parent say etc.. and such but then I don't know...I have never been a really bad rebel- well I have been a closet rebel to put it more to the point. Have always wanted it to look that I am looking for a high ideal but enjoying being rather far from perfect.
Right now I am thinking about my mom and how well she seems to balance everything out- to be a realist, have a faith, acknowledge her weaknesses but still have everybody like her for herself! She's real! I.. not so much.
...but then I have cleaned up and sometimes I am very proud of that fact- I think I see in my mind to understand some of what I am and doing much better and admit it even though it really upsets me. I hate that almost every day I want to smoke or whatever all those things that damage your body but are fun... but so not good. :(
I went for a very very VERY short bikeride today- went out the door went a few metres and had a flat tire. *la sigh* So it means I ended up going for a walk.
I'm extremely annoyed at getting pudgy!!! Not cool! Oh well I suppose I should maybe..just maybe stop eating!!1 BUT I LOVE FOOD!!! NOOOO! :(
Derrick is very very silly. :P
This month was pretty good, I don't feel nearly as bad as I have past years. I remember that last year was extremely rough and that I slept a lot- I also remember the summer was really good! I really grew up in a way that summer. First time not having as much parent say etc.. and such but then I don't know...I have never been a really bad rebel- well I have been a closet rebel to put it more to the point. Have always wanted it to look that I am looking for a high ideal but enjoying being rather far from perfect.
Right now I am thinking about my mom and how well she seems to balance everything out- to be a realist, have a faith, acknowledge her weaknesses but still have everybody like her for herself! She's real! I.. not so much.
...but then I have cleaned up and sometimes I am very proud of that fact- I think I see in my mind to understand some of what I am and doing much better and admit it even though it really upsets me. I hate that almost every day I want to smoke or whatever all those things that damage your body but are fun... but so not good. :(
I went for a very very VERY short bikeride today- went out the door went a few metres and had a flat tire. *la sigh* So it means I ended up going for a walk.
I'm extremely annoyed at getting pudgy!!! Not cool! Oh well I suppose I should maybe..just maybe stop eating!!1 BUT I LOVE FOOD!!! NOOOO! :(
Derrick is very very silly. :P
Monday, February 04, 2008
As I sit here and meander quite possibly very insignificant thoughts, I get very tired of it all. I miss simplistic days where I had no where to go and I pretty much just had a couple choices of what to do, or even only that one thing to do! I am only nineteen for crying out loud! What am I talking about. :P
I observe the simple things and the obvious goes right over my head.
I observe the simple things and the obvious goes right over my head.
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