Transitional Period

This is a bit of a transition as I am switching from once Having this blog called "Black Coffee" with a picture of a cappuccino. (Don't know where I was going with that!)
Recently I have switched from a generous lifestyle of tons of meat and dairy- to none at all! It is exciting and scary, a little saddening. ( Meat sure tastes good sometimes! )

The new title explains my personality. I am a bit Wild and Energetic and like to think Bright. (!!) I also one day hope to own a restaurant called "The Green Avocado" Some people hate the avocado and I can relate. I used to think it was one of the most disgusting things to eat ever! I myself have grown a great love for it and have often tricked people into eating it thinking it is delicious once I have mixed it into something else. hehe. There are so many options with this type of fruit/vegetable(??)

So this is my First day of a new blog but my 13th day as a Vegan So I think I will start a Bridget Jones diary type journal. A little more entertaining!

Day 13- July 1st
121pds 0Alc. 3green teas (yay!)

Happy Canada Day!

Could not stop thinking about food, so stuffed myself full of nuts and salad til I thought I was going to hurl. Nice depiction I am sure. I was bored and just wanted to keep stuffing my face. Afterwords I felt guilty and jumped on the treadmill to make myself feel better, and then went back and ate some more salad. :P
Otherwise life is going well. Reading the book "The Kind Diet" By Alicia Silverstone. I recommend it to anyone. The idea that what goes in your body affecting everything should be thought of more then it does. How healthy can dead meat ( that over 90% is mistreated! :( ) and milk from a COWS udder (that usually pusses and bleeds from over-milking)

Anyway enough of the Save the Earth Talk.
I am sleepy and need some rest!

Merry Christmas!

"It is better to be thought a fool then to open ones mouth and remove all doubt."

Coffee Time- Or not- I dunno. Just typing randomly. Right now I am getting cooked for and it is really nice to just sit here and be lazy. yay. yay. yay!

Bad Coffee

Ages. Ages since posting once again! I feel like such a little crybaby today. I'd like to pin it on the fact that I'm PMSing, life is going rough etc etc. That's not the truth of it. I just let myself go into a slump and crying seems almost an enjoyable stress reliever.

I was being a crybaby because I don't really have any close by friends to be with and feel like a loser and no one leaves me messages anymore and la de da.. Having a little pitty party for myself. I hate saying I was but that was how it was. I feel like such a bum. I have a ton of people willing to talk to me even now and before but I didnt have time for them (including my family) because I want to do what I want to do! It makes me reflect that in even saying this am I enjoying the feeling of feeling like I am such a boring loner (loser) so that I can be miserable? IS that warped or does that make sense?
Perhaps. I really don't know, or care. I needed somewhere to ramble and it felt like a good idea at the time. Still doesn't make sense or ever will. I just want to swear- like maybe that will get all the ugliness inside of me out!
But I dont really want to be sweet, I want to be a caullous cold hearted bitch and slap some fucking assholes faces so they feel a smart. I want to scream so loud that it breaks this stupid headache away. I want to be SOOOO Negative so that it all swarms up and explodes and then there is nothing left but pure good happy things.

I know it is all up to me to be happy- I dont need others to make myself happy I can change my attitude how do I make myself want to be happy? HAppy is such a dumb word though. I don't always have to be happy- I think that would be robotic, but what good does being how I am do. Yeah nothing- but who cares, I don't, but then I do, but I dont know it all feels like a huge blob of nothingness. GAHHHHHH.

I'm gonna go see if I can go play some rockband. I feel slightly lighthearted more now less angry. GOD HELP ME PLEASE I AM SO ANGRY FOR NO REASON

No Bravery

It has been a good long time since i have felt like writing in here. Often times I am so moody or depressed or bored of computers that I really don't want to write in here. Last time I read in this journal I was a little bit disappointed with how I am turning out as a grown up. Seems I had a lot more morals back then. Why am I letting them go?

This month was pretty good, I don't feel nearly as bad as I have past years. I remember that last year was extremely rough and that I slept a lot- I also remember the summer was really good! I really grew up in a way that summer. First time not having as much parent say etc.. and such but then I don't know...I have never been a really bad rebel- well I have been a closet rebel to put it more to the point. Have always wanted it to look that I am looking for a high ideal but enjoying being rather far from perfect.

Right now I am thinking about my mom and how well she seems to balance everything out- to be a realist, have a faith, acknowledge her weaknesses but still have everybody like her for herself! She's real! I.. not so much.

...but then I have cleaned up and sometimes I am very proud of that fact- I think I see in my mind to understand some of what I am and doing much better and admit it even though it really upsets me. I hate that almost every day I want to smoke or whatever all those things that damage your body but are fun... but so not good. :(

I went for a very very VERY short bikeride today- went out the door went a few metres and had a flat tire. *la sigh* So it means I ended up going for a walk.


I'm extremely annoyed at getting pudgy!!! Not cool! Oh well I suppose I should maybe..just maybe stop eating!!1 BUT I LOVE FOOD!!! NOOOO! :(


Derrick is very very silly. :P

As I sit here and meander quite possibly very insignificant thoughts, I get very tired of it all. I miss simplistic days where I had no where to go and I pretty much just had a couple choices of what to do, or even only that one thing to do! I am only nineteen for crying out loud! What am I talking about. :P

I observe the simple things and the obvious goes right over my head.

I look back and see all the ideals I had and it feels like they are all slipping away from me. NO. :(


My mind really gets to me lately. Oh no. :( Dear God help me. Life feels horribly winding down and I am just sitting here watching it.

BLACK COFFEE

I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind.
I left my body laying somewhere in the SANDS of time.
I watch the world float to the dark side of the moon.
I feel there's nothing I can do, Yeah.
I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon.
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you.
I really don't mind, what happens now and then.
As long as you'll be my friend at the end.
If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman.
If I'm alive and well, will you be there holding my hand.
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman MIGHT, Kryptonite.
You call me strong, you call me weak but still your secrets I will keep.
You took for granted, all the times I never let you down.
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if not for me then you'd be dead.
I picked you up, and put you back on solid ground.
If I go crazy then will you still call me superman.
If I'm alive and well will you be there, holding my hand.
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman MIGHT, Kryptonite, Yeah!
If I go crazy then will you still call me superman.
If I'm alive and well, will you be there, holding my hand.
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman MIGHT , Kryptonite.
If I go crazy then will you still call me superman.
If I'm alive and well, will you be there, holding my hand.
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman MIGHT , Kryptonite.


Sleep Time.
*sigh*

Sometimes life really feels trashy. Some days it couldn't be better. Right now I don't know how to describe my attitude or how I feel. I feel mad about my flacky tendencies. It makes me frustrated. I was asked out this week and I said yes...then I was feeling "-- no I don't really want to..." but at the same time I want to find some consistancies. Not just for dating but I can't find myself just hitting off with just any type of guy or girl for relationships in general. Every month it is a different guy and it never lasts. That makes me sad. Like there is something wrong with me. I like being alone too. I would rather be alone then try for something that isn't going to go anywhere friendship wise at all.

You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new - yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

Wow, life is hectic and I miss not writing in here. I'll be back later.

"Me, me, me, I love myself. I have my own little picture on my shelf."

My name is Adri. My first crime was when I was eighteen. I like thinking I
am unique. I definitely like individualism and feel pride on the fact that many people would never link me to doing what I do. I was never noticed my whole life, I’m not loud vocally or declare my emotions through facial expressions, It just isn’t me. I am fairly ugly, not hideous mind you, just not notably. I also appear dumb. I know this because I have seen it to be true when I look in the mirror. Sometimes people who seem like retards get negative attention but I never did.

I craved attention. I wanted to be noticed badly. What was life worth if I did not
get anything? It would be better if I were dead and since we are all going to die anyway, life is expendable. In a hundred years you will be no more. Many people believe life is sacred, I do not. I think it is better to of not lived then to be someone who has dealt with hell all their lives.

So…how do you become a criminal without letting you identity become known?
I was silent, observant and even my performance of self behaviour was well acted on.
Once I started getting into serious crime, it was hard to stop. It became an addiction. It is so easy to kill. I liked hearing about a murder and knowing I was the one who was the murderer. I was being noticed finally. You would probably consider me cold, sick, and selfish. I don’t mind because that just shows that I am really something. Why should standards matter? I see no point, so I do what I like. I killed a guy I saw in the field for my first crime. He was dumb, outside in the dark all by himself, so I stabbed him over and over again. I enjoy the feeling of having done something many people haven’t done. It makes me feel powerful. Then it gets worse, and I get sloppy in my desire to kill, and I become obsessed.

Last night I killed my mother. I hated my mother my whole life. The one
person in the whole world who should have noticed me my whole life did not. She didn’t pretend to notice me because she didn’t like me or anything, which would have been bearable So… she is dead. She is lying on the floor. I put arsenic in her drink. I know I will be found out now. There is no way to not be found out and not be sent to jail, so since life is expendable here is my end.

~This short story that I had to do a week ago was a bit of a mistake as I misunderstood the teachers directions, and the teacher was a creeped out and I ended getting talked to. I recieved a fine mark anyway. This story was pulled out of the hat. Which makes for some of the weak writing- arsenic is so not imaginative, but then the character isn't as much so as she thinks.

I found this- it is unbelievable. Last year. Oh my.
I just want to put it here as I am deleting everything.
(Katie, I forgot that you even read in here or that anyone knows about it, it seems so nice and quiet, and I like it. You have seen this before I think.)

It is 8pm, a clear Wednesday.
Our family has been busy, going to and frow.
Me, well I was dictating how I wanted things.
My mom wanting to be bratty woman right back at my bratty brother. [/mom words *solemn*]
Brother #3 leading a game compaign and talking in a Game programming chat room.
The other, brother #2, playing a 2-D PC game.
The bratty brother #4, tucked in bed-5 minutes previously-no longer in bed, laughing hysterically at a up-pulled bed cover.
My father, consuming a peanut butter sandwich after a busy work day-

- and it is decided, we need a family day.

We blare t.v. and all PCs volume to max. Turn on the radio. My lil brother is droned out to sleepiness, and goes to beauty kingdom, where Thomas the train awaits him.

Okay-so what now? Yeah, lets watch a movie-then we don't need to bore ourselves watching each other. There is only so many times we can see a person scratch like a monkey and think he is a missing link to the hypothesis of Evolution, and it is not like any of us believe that anyway.

So what can we do? Okay cards, lets play poker-get the peanuts -we are going to use them as money.
My word, I dislike salted peanuts, please win these distateful morsefuls from me, please.
Crap, I won, how did that happen?
I shall pawn them of on my teen brother.

SO. Now my butt hurts form sitting down. Yes. Lets go outside. Lets play hide in seek..

Wait! We need a weapon. So we can stab the person we found-oh hoo hoo. Yes. *gleams*
So this will be like Olly'Olly'Oxen-free. or whatever you call it.
Grabs #2 brother-we need his light saber.

Okay, who is it first? OH oh! PIck me pick me! I want the lightsaber!
....okay Adri is now it.
Lets go off. First we must kill the mom, oh yes.
Now, who next? The brother 2, he is too smart, slash( Yoda voice-'MAY the force be with you.')
Now dad-awe carpafish. He is safe. Okay so where is 3 brother? Hmm. Oh! there he is. IN a tree-barefooted? IN the dark?? Crazy brother.
Chase-all through back yard. Run through a fence-hear a funny sound. Umm..What was that??
Tag brother. Kill him with lightsaber.
Brother has a gash in chest 3 inches long, 1/3rd cent deep. Ouch!
MY fault. I chased him into the fence with a pointy edge.

Okay, now what? It is only like 10pm.
Brother #2!!! We need your other lightsaber-!!! The Luke Skywalker one!

Yes yes! Lets go into the front yard.
Okay, so how you play is just start lightsaber battling and if a body part is hit, you no longer have it. SO if a arm is slashed. You can no onger use it.

Mom style-Stick lightsaber away from body as far as possible and try to block attacks.
Dad style- wack uncontrollably like a insane man. IN downward motion, don't look just keep slashing, You'll win eventually.
Bro 2 style- slow tactics, grab lightsaber, walk off with it-it's yours anyway
Bro 3 style- I know what I am doing-heck yes. I pwn. 3 minutes and I win. You die.
Adri style- Pretend to be Kenobi-slightly succesfully, and beat everyone but 3rd bro and then fall in dirt.

Doing this in the front yard is great. There is about 15 neighbors houses nearby.
Let them see what we are made of. Yes.

Neighbor:
What are you people doing?
Us:
Oh, well just playing. It is very fun.
*slashes in background*

*Puzzled look*
Nb:Okay
Um, see ya.

So next time it was war with these flags. We run around victorously with these Chilliwackian flags.
No one beats us, oh yeah. We are so cool.

NO one agrees. Heck no one else wants to say anything.

Hmm. Well I am moving out of my parents house in a little over a month. Yikes. I have no money so I need to find a job fast. Real fast. This could really hurt my chances at school. Maybe I'll just be a LPN? That would suck but it would be better then never accomplishing anything at school. I will see. This means I will be saying hello to student loans. No Hurraying here. *sigh*

I am supposed to be studying for my Final in a couple hours. Meh.

Yesterday was pretty stupid. I decsided(sp) to bike to school, because I want to be all healthy and such, and well,, I lost my bike key after locking my bike, so I was stuck at school for a couple extra hours. I was put out considerably. I went got a metal clamp shutter to break the chain, and went home while it was pouring rain. The beautiful thing was the rainbow that was out the whole way.

The day was so icky, I just prayed to God to keep the rainbow out until I got home, and he did, and the left end of the rainbow was behind my parents house, so it was neat.

Then the day didn't seem so bad. I have been doubting my beliefs and wondering if I am a christian? Can you be a hypocrite and a christian at the same time? That is what I am, I haven't wanted to face up to my parents since I turned 18 about myself and such so have been lieing to save my face, so I finally admitted some stuff when I knew I could hid it no longer. I felt pretty suicidal last week I admit.

My parents are great. Probably the best that I know.
Of course before they were christians I have bad memories, but it doesn't hurt so much because I know they are sorry about it.
I did kind of screw them. I have no close relationship with my parents because I made a lie of the tangible one we had.
Living on my own will be a reality chceck for me, so I am sure if I don't get worse I can only get better. :(

Dear God have mercy on me.

Arthritis is acting up, the annoying bugger -(the pain) and now my stupid night time allusions are coming back. It is rather awful, it gets where I am screaming and biting my tounge in wrath. My own face is mocking me in a uncontrollable frenzy.

Anyway-better go study. :)

Entia non sunt multiplicanda praeter necessitatem.

Okay خسخ ÷ شةam going to talk like I do when really not feeling well. Today was crappy. I felt like shit the entire day. What the hell is wrong with me? Some days go so well and everything looks dandy. I look in the mirror, my eyes are bloodshot and I want to scream at life. I have life pretty good too, so I shouldn't complian either. It just sucks and I really, really want everyone to leave me alone and stop seeing me the way I am in their opinions because that is not who I am. I am an ass hole but I don't want people to think that because I don't want to be one. I know, I contradict myself. That is because I want to be thought well of without having to do anything to make myself deserve who I am. It makes me really question my beliefs,and see that I have a lot of double standards. "Why the fuck do I give advice anywayز

آخ ةخقث فاهىلس ساخعمي لاث حقثسعةثي فخ ثءهسف فاشى شقث شلاسخمعفثمغ ىثؤشسسشقغز


أثمح ’ث لأ×]!

Live 4 - I want you.

I love that song by Savage Garden. I was thinking over the time and how today being New Years Day. I have no resolutions except to study
feverishly this upcoming semester.

Yesterday went well, I drank too much wine though. I have a slight headache. I didn't even start drinking until after 12am. *gah* I had the wonderful opportunity to see some people I hadn't had the chance to since the summer and we all seperated for school or work. It was splendid to see them again. The work on my vocabulary helped exceedingly. *smile*

I was going through the pictures I took in 2006. I am not one to take amazing pictures, but I do love these ones. I took them as the sun was coming up. I like seeing the change as it happened.

Time and Tide Wait for No Man

Whew. Everything went swell for all my tests. I am glad it is over now. I have decided to get my Grade 12 diploma next month, even though I am already in post-secendary school. I kind of think I would like to have it regardless. I dislike it when people make a big deal when they hear or get told that I have never graduated. At least I got a few strings pulled without needing to prove that I did the equivalent without any transcripts or anything. (Science is the main thing, since I want to be a nurse.) I am glad I switched to UCFV regardless of some of my first year post secendary work not being accepted there.

I ramble. Today is very windy. I just saw a neighbours house get hit by a tree that broke in half. Wow. I went and finally got my seperation papers. Finally... that place is kind of sneaky (old job).. I mean...they didn't even write out a couple checks that I needed, and then they only gave me papers for working One month and getting 1800 dollars. I was willing to think it was a mistake but it took 2 months to finally get what I wanted.

I bought a couple Christmas presents. I hate how horrible traffic gets around this year. I am not a very experienced driver and some of the drivers with several years under their belt don't seem to think anything of it and do crazy things.

This week was good, I went to a few parties, got to be
designated driver. Sometimes it is amusing to see how people act differently when a little alcohol goes into their system. I got red wine thrown all over my white shirt. That was not so cool. Anyway I am going to go see Royal Casino, or Casino Royal- whatev te name is, tonight.

I am so excited about upcoming prospects and people I get to see soon.
My infection is almost gone now too. So I can start up once again on some old activities. Yeah!

Cowards falter, but danger is often overcome by those who nobly dare.

Wow, I haven't sone one of these for so long. This is what happens with feeling sick and staying at home.

Current, exact Location: At my parents house.
Temperature: 20 degrees
People around are: Brother
Music playing: Tech-9
Weather is like: Dark, it is night.
Day: Friday
Date: December 8th
Year: 2006Time: 11pm soon
Mood: I am pretty sick. I can't speak much without coughing and squeaking.
= You =
Your most popular name is: Adri, Adrianna (Die if you use.)

Race: Caucasian Ethnic background: Native, Croation, English, Scottish, Italian.

How old are you? 18
When were you born? On my birthday.
Your starsign is: N/A
Most known qualities of this starsign: .....
Can you be stereotyped? Yes. Sadly.
Describe your dress style: Comfortable, and um basic. Sporty.
Favourite item of clothing: This dress I recently bought.
Most worn item of clothing: My long brown sweater.
Currently wearing: L.e.i Jeans, Dock shirt
Make up wearing: Eyeliner( green forest) and plum coloured lip gloss.
Jewellery wearing: Stud earrings and Necklace with heart on it.
Favourite item of jewellery: My dove cross.
Any distinguishing features? My eyes I have been told, and my nose (in my mind)
Height: 5'6''
Eye colour: Dark
Hair colour: It is naturally black.
Hair style: Wavy, layered in front.
Hair length: mid-long.
Scars: Too many to want to count or think about.
Any disabilities? Whatever that means. Maybe.
Glasses/contacts? No
Can you drive? I have a license to drive, some people don't like driving with me. They fear for their lives.
Pasttimes: Reading, writing, going on the computer, watching movies, working out
You love: Many people.
You hate: Frustration. Lots of stuff.
Friends: Yes. (don't count my friends)
Online friends:Yes. ^^
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: No,
You as a person: I am me. I am seen a little as disturbed but concerned for many. I tend to care too much.
Your words/phrases: Oh," "Oh my word."
Your phone is: Crap. Actually I just killed the screen. I hucked it into a corner, thinking it was totally toast then realized I was broke and needed a phone and saw I could still at least talk to people, except I am stuck with having 'Dare you to Move" as a ring tone, and not being able to text message. *whines*
Your room is: Green. Most people like it. It is small too. I like small rooms.
Describe your house and its surroundings: Blue House surrounded by simaliar housing. Village/town/city: .....I actually don't live in a town...*grins*.. so a village? But..I do live in a City.

House number: I don't share that openly.
= Family =Parents: yes
Stepparents: 0
Sibling/s: 5
Step-siblings: 1
Pets: 4
You live with: the 'rents
Grandparents: 2 grandmothers 2grandfathers.
First cousins: 8First auntie/uncles: 8
Mothers age and starsign: 37
Fathers age and starsign: I don't really want to share.
Siblings age and starsign: 1,4,15,16,26 (Who really cares about their starsign here? )
Your mother looks like: A Goddess. She thinks she is beautiful herself.
Your father looks like: A man who married a Goddess
Your sibling looks like: Not me. I have a good looking family or else the possibility of looking good. I love my whole family.
You get on best with: My mother, and my brother=16 years.=
Relationships, of any kind =
Best friend: I don't exactly have a best friend. I have a few very close friends. I don't tend to share my deepest thoughts, with anyone usually.
Friends: LOTS
Work friends: 30. At least they like me. Ones I stay in contact outside of work is about 6
Most fun: Going out with friends, family, travelling, bugging guys can be lots of fun. Mountain biking, Kick boxing, Trying to dance well. ;)- Oh! friend! Ah- Dave- he is fun to do boring stuff with.
Funniest: I would say Dave again, but I guess other then him I would say Brian
Best laugh: Holly.
Best hair: Melissa
Best voice: Vanessa
Best vocabulary: Nathan
Smartest: they are all smart in their own waysMost ignorant: i don't hang out with ignorant people I would like to say..and I wouldn't share who it was if I did. I myself can be very ignorant Deep conversations with: Katherine, Dave,
You see most often:Anne
You hang out with: I don't usually hang out with one person a whole lot more then another.
You drink with: My family actually. My family is insane
You talk most with: My mom.
Shares most in common with: Actually..I don't know. It is odd.
Shares your humour: Dave. haha. I go on about him. If he wasn't married .... *grins*
Most miserable: How can anyone be miserable if I'M in their life? Actually I couldn't share.
Genres for movies: Action, Science Fiction, Semi-horror- Comedy, and yes, Chick Flicks.
Actresses: ..Leelee Sobieski
Actors: Patrick Stewart, Harrison Ford, Ben Kingsley
Last movie watched: Like Heaven
You are creative in what ways: I can not write very well. If preformance is the key, I do alright, but I do not outstand.
Last proper novel read: Jane Eyre
Favourite novels: Portait of a Lady, Pride and Predjudice, Lord of the Rings, David Copperfield
Favourite authors: Jane Austen, , JRR Tolkein, Charles Dickens
Favourite childhood novels: The Chronicles of Narnia, anything by Roald Dahl, Anne of Green Gables.
= Love =
Marital status: SingleBoyfriend/girlfriend: No
In love with: the feeling, but that is all.
How much and why: Because I am attracted to this guy, and that is how it sometimes starts
Are you romantic? Yes.
Romantic songs: I haven't found my favourite one yet.
Other/Misc =Can you draw? Yes, not wonderfully, but nicely.
Colours: Green
Shampoo/conditioner: Citre Shine.
Hair products: I don't use many, but it usually is Citre shine products for everything
Hair dye: Salon dyes all the way. My hair damages too easily.
Single/double bed: I just switched for a futon! Lovely pine one.
Furniture: Too lazy..a couch etc.
Email: I love getting e-mails! *want's e-mails*
S/N AIM: Yes.
Internet servers: Firefox, Explorer, and something else that I forget the name of.
Colour curtains: dark green
Colour carpet: pine flooring
Colour duvets: blue.
Pillows: blue, green, red, white
Favourite way of insulting: Sadly by being sarcastic
Pubs: I have only been in a couple pubs (that where you need to be legal drinking age.) I think it is overated personally. (I shouldn't of went in anyway.)
Restaurants: Mexican, Greek, Indian.
Take out: Dairy Queen
Healthy food: Ono's. Sort of.
Junk food: Skittles and Chocolate and sherbert and Gelato! (naniamo bars.) Dessert food.
Meals: Dinner is usually my favuorite meal.
Breakfast: Yogurt
Animals: I love all animals.
Religion: Raised in World Wide Church- now 'non-denominational' in words but not in character.
Veggie/carnivore: I'd chop of a chickens head..
Subjects in school: Math, Science
Way of affection: Hugs.

= Last time =
Showered: Today
Bathed: Last week
Cleaned teeth: This afternoonBrushed hair: 2 hours ago.
Listened to music: RIght now Justin Timberlake *dies* My brother likes him.
Watched a movie: last night
Wrote a letter: I wrote 3 today
.Received a letter: Yesterday
Wrote an email: today
Received an email: this morning
Spoke to someone: About 1/2 an hour ago
Said what: ''Ut aw ya istnen ou?
Sang: Can not sing. Voice is not working. I feel horrible.
Walked in the rain: A couple days ago. I love rain.
Felt unwell: Right now I could use some sympathy. ;)
Danced: Last night
Got drunk: Mother's Day. Not totally loaded but I was pretty out. fatigue and alcohol don't do well That day was so insane. IT was not a good day- the next day especially.
Ate food, and what: Last thing I ate was a mandarin orange
Went to a Gig: A while!
Watched TV: Not for a few days. Actually
Argued: This morning.
Talked to someone online: I don't really like talking to people online much these days..blocking people is very handy.
Said I love you,: To my brother when he hugged me when I went to tuck him in.

The sun's rim dips; the stars rush out, at one stride comes the dark.

Today went good. I figured out how much extra money I have aside from school expenditures.
I drove for a few hours going up towards Vancouver. There were several semi trucks in the ditches and traffic was extremely slow. The doctors appointment seemed to go well. Waiting upon a referral
On recent reflection, I went and found scattered papers from my memories box. I found this song I wrote, without a name and without it being written in a time signature, from about 6 years ago. Just the notes. I don’t even have the key written down. (I never was the greatest for hearing songs and figuring the key automatically.) (It is the key of D on review.) A, A flat, F sharp, E, 4 whole rests, A , C and then B sharp low A, E , C sharp D, C sharp B, A, B. (first line.) I kind of want to make a song out of what is on the paper, even though I don’t remember it
I believe I am going to a concert tomorrow night. Some local talent from my city.
I loath to go, and just stay home. To listen to music by myself sounds preferable. I am troubled. Nothing is going wrong, I just feel confused lately.
Going out to exercise now. Excited,f or I haven't been able to do any freestyle or kickboxing for a while since spraining my leg. *smile*

Snow Patrol
Chasing Cars
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I think I might like Snow Patrol..? I like the hymn-like electronica of the album in some songs. Such as Finish Line. It appeals to me, and any band that has a hint of celtic in it, I will listen to openly.
Any songs that make me feel melancholy, I enjoy right now.

Reindeer.

I have a interview witha lady at UCFV on Friday! I am a little nervous. *grins*

Anyway here is some of my reindeer I made yesterday!

Dear God, be good to me. The sea is so wide and my boat is so small.

"Better Days"
And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these wordsAnd sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fightJ
ust a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these wordsAnd sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again